Fear of loosing what you dont have...

How many times that happens...?

Fear of loosing things which you might never had...

Are you looking for a bright star? searching nd searching... there are many stars... some bright nd some not so bright... while you are searching for your perfact star.. there might be a star just in front of your eyes... not so bright.... still trying to shine with his full capacity to just capture one glimpse of your eyes... while you are looking for your star... you lost this second star... which was trying the best it could have done... but you never had this star also... so you lost something you never had...

Are you looking for you life partner... searching for some one speacial... ideal... dream comes true... person?

Have a very good friend...??
Someone who does not like rain, yet walking in the rain just because you like so... only because you will feel good?
Someone who is not happy go going person, yet doing party all night just because you like it... only because to give you company?
Someone who is going one extra mile every time to make you happy... to make you feel special... to make you smile one more time...

Feeling worried... you know whom to call... you know the perfact shoulder to cry on...
Got something to share... you know who want to listen every bit of what you want to say...
Feeling lonely... you know who is right person... still looking for perfact one. Something in you says.. he/she may be the one... still the person is just a friend...

Sometime we thinks when the special one comes... there will be something special to let us know that he/she is the special one? what will be that special one? is flood in mumbai is that special event? or a beautiful day will be that special event? or every time when you talk to him/her and feel that you have never been so happy... is that a special event? Perhaps none will be... God does not work that way... he doesn't put ads in your news paper to tell you "the name"... he wont sms you "the name"... his call are often unheared... what if he is calling with that person?

Many times he/she is in our mind when we look out for that special some one... we compare every one with the unknown image we have... but mind is not ready to accept anybody... he just knows that there are better people... he knows somebody better.. so he just keep on refusing all possible "someone special"... if it does happens that there is something to think with both mind and heart.

Sometime heart and mind does not sing in sinc... mind says... he/she might be one... and heart says... what if he/she might not be one? and bettle goes on... heart is just scared... to loose him/her as a friend if moves of mind goes bad... it is not ready to loose that friend... it is not ready to jump to next stepping stone... what if it looses first one...

While mind has it own reasoning... you cant move if you are afraid of taking off your last step... you can not walk a single meter.... to cross a valley you have to jump... you have to leave the first rock in order to get on to next one.... love can never happen if you are not friend with person... it is just stupid feeling to think of someone. whom you love but he/she is not a good friend...

Still heart does not believes... it has its own fears... fear of loosing a friend which is so dear... worth keeping for life long...

Mind says... if he/she is so good friend then the person will understand... you have to leave the good in order to get better... or may be even best... still heart is confused... it is unable to decide the difference between good/better and best.... it want every thing.... good, better and best...

And this is how you loose "the best".... the best which you never had...

Race for being the last one

Funny... it seems like that from first instance... if they are racing then they would fight to be first one... why race to be last one? still everyone is racing to be "last previleged one".

If still you are among confused souls... just stand near a busy traffic signal for 10 minutes... nd you will grasp the truth behind these words... traffic signal is green... people are moving... fast... everybody want to save 10-15 seconds on the road... it doesn't matter when it comes to chat, drink, eat or television... everybody has ample time... but when on the road... we have no time... (ok... that is all together a different story...) honking on every single vehicle that comes in radar of 10-15 meter... they are moving...

All of sudden signal turns into yellow... nd speed of vehicles increases... got to cross signal before it becomes red... all of the stunts which circus people used to show some years ago are now visible on the signal only... nd then comes the red light... no... there is no sudden breaks.. as yuo might have expected... there comes the real fight... the new moto of life... struggle to be the last one... who crossed the signal...

ok... lets assume that you are not among that crazy crowd... you prefer bus... then what happen when it is time to fill the returns... pay the bills... huge lines on the last tells the truth.... we are waiting... waiting and waiting only to get entry into elite club of "last ones..".