I said "I Love You". She said nothing. She never says anything.
Can she feel the way I do? "May be not".
Will she ever feel the way I do? I know the answer, "May be not". But I dont want to hear that answer.
Every morning I wake up with same irrestible desire. She looks so beautiful in the morning. Her innocence like morning dew, tenderness like untouched flower petals makes me grasping for breath every time I see her in morning. I cant help saying "I Love You" again... but she says nothing.
I know I am not the only one who is amazed of her beauty. Still I cant help.
I spend whole day wondering about the thought of not being the one but just one. But perhaps that doesnt matter to her. She is just too busy to notice me. May be she just doesnt care.
There is so much I want to say to her but she wont listen. She wont say anything, she wont change for me.
Still comes next morning and I say "I Love You" one more time but she wont say anyhing. Perhaps she will never.
One more day in my life... one more day I wish she talked to me... one more day in our story... me and she... me and bangalore city...
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Red Light and Shooting Star....
Time: 6:30 PM
Date: 26 Aug 2008
Place: Sony world signal, Bangalore
Traffic condition: Normal (means bad)
Among the many people waiting for signal to turn green, I am looking at sky. May be hopeless in that grid of traffic. Looking at sky is always a relief. There is no hush there, no jam... may be some birds going back to their adobe, still sky is silent like a monk. It is almost same everyday. Clouds come and go but its vastness gives it unique quality of having all in it and still remain empty.
Sky today is not much different. I am looking at some distant corner, I dont feel like looking anyone near by. Suddenly... I see a shooting star from nowhere. It came, lived its moment of glories and vanished nowhere.
A shooting star... Time to wish a wish. I close my eyes and wish something, that wish wont come true I know deep inside. Still who knows? and wishing is not going to cost me anything.
A sudden realization... I am a product of 18 years of education, how can I believe in shooting stars and wish coming true? Wait... that wasn't a star also. May be some asteroid who came so near to earth that it started burning due to friction... I know I know.
But what if it was not a star? It was bright for that moment bright enough to make it shine like a star... bright enough to make people believe it as a star... bright enough so people can make a wish.
Wishing a wish. It will give someone a hope that his wish will come true. For that moment he might forget how real the world his but his wish will come true. So what if it wasnt a star?
Or it was a star? For that moment, for that person... for me. A star of hope. And it burnt itself for that hope... whatelse you need from a star?
A sudden void is filling me from inside. Am I a star for someone? may be for a moment only... may be I can give him a dream... do i have the guts to burn myself to give someone a smile? Can I be a star for some one for some moments?
That thought is enough to make me take notice of signal which is turning yellow. The best thing I can do now to race till next signal... I know that shooting star is laughing at me... and i am going to hide away in crowd.
Date: 26 Aug 2008
Place: Sony world signal, Bangalore
Traffic condition: Normal (means bad)
Among the many people waiting for signal to turn green, I am looking at sky. May be hopeless in that grid of traffic. Looking at sky is always a relief. There is no hush there, no jam... may be some birds going back to their adobe, still sky is silent like a monk. It is almost same everyday. Clouds come and go but its vastness gives it unique quality of having all in it and still remain empty.
Sky today is not much different. I am looking at some distant corner, I dont feel like looking anyone near by. Suddenly... I see a shooting star from nowhere. It came, lived its moment of glories and vanished nowhere.
A shooting star... Time to wish a wish. I close my eyes and wish something, that wish wont come true I know deep inside. Still who knows? and wishing is not going to cost me anything.
A sudden realization... I am a product of 18 years of education, how can I believe in shooting stars and wish coming true? Wait... that wasn't a star also. May be some asteroid who came so near to earth that it started burning due to friction... I know I know.
But what if it was not a star? It was bright for that moment bright enough to make it shine like a star... bright enough to make people believe it as a star... bright enough so people can make a wish.
Wishing a wish. It will give someone a hope that his wish will come true. For that moment he might forget how real the world his but his wish will come true. So what if it wasnt a star?
Or it was a star? For that moment, for that person... for me. A star of hope. And it burnt itself for that hope... whatelse you need from a star?
A sudden void is filling me from inside. Am I a star for someone? may be for a moment only... may be I can give him a dream... do i have the guts to burn myself to give someone a smile? Can I be a star for some one for some moments?
That thought is enough to make me take notice of signal which is turning yellow. The best thing I can do now to race till next signal... I know that shooting star is laughing at me... and i am going to hide away in crowd.
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